printed in the Echo Press
9-14-2001
The new Minnesota Junior Girls State Horseshoe champion started pitching in the backyard of her Evansville home when she was eight.
"I just started throwing with my dad and grandpa for the fun of it," recalls Kayla Larson, whose father, mother and grandfather all participate in the sport. "I'd throw from about 20 feet, and slowly built up."
Larson's first tournament appearance came in 1998 at an event in Donnelly. She averaged a humble five percent ringer average, but knew she was hooked on throwing horseshoes.
"It's a really relaxing sport," she noted, "but, I'm a pretty competitive person, so it can be as competitive as I want to make it. That's what I like."
At the recent state tournament held in Forest Lake, Larson, who also competes in volleyball, basketball and softball, was a perfect 5-0 in head-to-head competition, with a ringer average of 39.52 percent.
Her highest ringer average thus far has been 50 percent.
Since getting serious about the sport, Larson has competed in three state tournaments, two state doubles tournaments and two world championships, the most recent one held earlier this summer in Hibbing, MN.
She was named Minnesota Rookie of the Year in 1999, and last year was the recipient of a $200 scholarship from the National Horseshoe Pitchers Association for achievements both in the classroom and in the sport.
Although Minnesota has the largest roster of junior pitchers in the nation with 72, Larson understands that many of her peers know little about the sport in which she's found so much success.
"Most of the kids in my school know I pitch horseshoes, but it's not a really popular sport right now.
"There are more kids pitching, but there still aren't a lot," said Larson, who last year conducted a horseshoe clinic for kids in grades 4-6 to encourage more young pitchers. "It's a great sport with a lot of great people."
According to Larson, one of the presenters at the state tournament explained horseshoes best when he called it a gift that's passed on from one enthusiast to the next.
"It really helps if you have friends or family that play," said Larson. "I let people know if they're interested, that I'll teach them, because that's how it works. That's how I got started, watching my family."
Of her most recent – and most prestigious to date – crowning moment, Larson said it was almost unreal.
"I was pitching with the same people I usually pitch with," she recalled. "When I won, it was just like any other win, until I thought about it. I was the top girl pitcher in the state!
"That was pretty good," she added. "Definitely pretty good!"
Saturday, October 22, 2016
The Game of My Life
written by Kayla Larson
10-19-2003
The pressure was on as soon as I walked into the Forest Lake hockey arena. The atmosphere in the arena was not a typical hockey arena. Inside the Plexiglas walls, there were 24 horseshoe courts sectioned off with blue tarp barriers into three pitching areas consisting of 8 courts each. Each court has a scoreboard and a scorekeeper's chair placed at the center, just out of the pitcher's way. The arena is filled with laughter, visiting, and constant clanging of horseshoes hitting the stakes. This is my home every Labor Day weekend. In 2001, I became the MN Junior Girls State Champion. Now, in 2002, could I defend my title?
I had to compete against 3 other girls, approximately my same age and same ringer percent. Since the numbers were down in our class, we used a double round robin format. We played 6 games to 40 points. After a couple hours of friendly competition, we awaited the results. The leader board showed a tie between Colette and I.
Off the court, Colette and I have become good friends throughout the years, but when it comes time to compete, it's all or nothing. We've competed against each other in local tournaments, past State Tournaments, and two World Tournaments. For us, the only game that matters is when we match up against each other. Every time we play each other we hope for our best game, but never as much as we wanted it during this championship deciding game.
After a short break, it was time to start our playoff game. By this time, everyone else who had been competing on the other courts had finished up their games. Now, all the spectators had made their way to the bleachers where Colette and I were about to start our game. The laughter, the visiting, and the clanging of horseshoes hitting the stakes were gone. An uncomfortable hush filled the arena.
I had never experienced anything like this before. I was shaking on the inside and probably on the outside, too. My heart was working overtime as it pounded and pounded inside my chest. It amazed me that I could even throw the horseshoes my first few throws. However, everything eventually started to feel normal again. The crowd slowly faded out of my sight and the only thing I saw was the stake. I was effortlessly throwing ringer after ringer. Everything felt so easy and natural.
Finally, I could see my win in sight. The Girls State Champion was about to be crowned. I only needed 1 point to win. I threw two ringers on for 6 points. The only way I could lose was if Colette covered both of my horseshoes. She threw her first shoe–missed. She threw her second shoe–missed! The crowd exploded with cheers and applause. I earned my second consecutive State Championship.
Defending my title was very important to me. The pressure was hard to overcome, but I managed. You'd have to experience playing in a playoff game to understand how I felt. It was amazing. I pitched at the top of my game to defeat Colette and defend my title.
10-19-2003
The pressure was on as soon as I walked into the Forest Lake hockey arena. The atmosphere in the arena was not a typical hockey arena. Inside the Plexiglas walls, there were 24 horseshoe courts sectioned off with blue tarp barriers into three pitching areas consisting of 8 courts each. Each court has a scoreboard and a scorekeeper's chair placed at the center, just out of the pitcher's way. The arena is filled with laughter, visiting, and constant clanging of horseshoes hitting the stakes. This is my home every Labor Day weekend. In 2001, I became the MN Junior Girls State Champion. Now, in 2002, could I defend my title?
I had to compete against 3 other girls, approximately my same age and same ringer percent. Since the numbers were down in our class, we used a double round robin format. We played 6 games to 40 points. After a couple hours of friendly competition, we awaited the results. The leader board showed a tie between Colette and I.
Off the court, Colette and I have become good friends throughout the years, but when it comes time to compete, it's all or nothing. We've competed against each other in local tournaments, past State Tournaments, and two World Tournaments. For us, the only game that matters is when we match up against each other. Every time we play each other we hope for our best game, but never as much as we wanted it during this championship deciding game.
After a short break, it was time to start our playoff game. By this time, everyone else who had been competing on the other courts had finished up their games. Now, all the spectators had made their way to the bleachers where Colette and I were about to start our game. The laughter, the visiting, and the clanging of horseshoes hitting the stakes were gone. An uncomfortable hush filled the arena.
I had never experienced anything like this before. I was shaking on the inside and probably on the outside, too. My heart was working overtime as it pounded and pounded inside my chest. It amazed me that I could even throw the horseshoes my first few throws. However, everything eventually started to feel normal again. The crowd slowly faded out of my sight and the only thing I saw was the stake. I was effortlessly throwing ringer after ringer. Everything felt so easy and natural.
Finally, I could see my win in sight. The Girls State Champion was about to be crowned. I only needed 1 point to win. I threw two ringers on for 6 points. The only way I could lose was if Colette covered both of my horseshoes. She threw her first shoe–missed. She threw her second shoe–missed! The crowd exploded with cheers and applause. I earned my second consecutive State Championship.
Defending my title was very important to me. The pressure was hard to overcome, but I managed. You'd have to experience playing in a playoff game to understand how I felt. It was amazing. I pitched at the top of my game to defeat Colette and defend my title.
Thursday, September 29, 2016
FITNESS: New Workout Playlist
I've been taking advantage of the feature allowing me to do my workout with "no music" and supplying my own playlist. Up until yesterday I had just used iHeart Radio and put it on a station titled "Caffeinated Country," but after putting my iTunes on shuffle the other day while working around the kitchen, I was reminded of how many upbeat Christian songs I have in my library that make me want to MOVE. I decided to put together a playlist "Christian Jams" to use during my workouts. Tested it out last night for my INSANITY: Max Recovery workout, and LOVED it! I feel like Christian music almost doubles as personal development for me, which I also happen to LOVE!
Here's a look at the playlist if you're interested in changing things up and finding a new groove for your workout time!
Beautiful Ending by BarlowGirl
Boomin' by TobyMac
Bring 'Em Out by Hawk Nelson
Catchafire (Whoopsi-Daisy) by TobyMac
Dear X (You Don't Own Me) by Disciple
Diverse City by TobyMac
Forgiven by Skillet
I Am Yours (feat. Ben Donnelly) by Brinson
I'm Not Alright by Sanctus Real
It's On by Superchick
Joyful Noise by Flame
Let Us Love by Need to Breathe
Live Life Loud by Hawk Nelson
Lose It All by Rush of Fools
Me Against The World by Superchick
NY2LA by Press Play
Second Chances by Stellar Kart
Something To Believe In by FM Static
Something To Say by Matthew West
Stronger by Mandisa
Temporary Fills by Mandisa
The Slam by TobyMac
Where I Belong by Building 429
Who I Am Hates Who I've Been by Relient K
Throw out some of your favorite workout tunes. All genres welcome!
Here's a look at the playlist if you're interested in changing things up and finding a new groove for your workout time!
Beautiful Ending by BarlowGirl
Boomin' by TobyMac
Bring 'Em Out by Hawk Nelson
Catchafire (Whoopsi-Daisy) by TobyMac
Dear X (You Don't Own Me) by Disciple
Diverse City by TobyMac
Forgiven by Skillet
I Am Yours (feat. Ben Donnelly) by Brinson
I'm Not Alright by Sanctus Real
It's On by Superchick
Joyful Noise by Flame
Let Us Love by Need to Breathe
Live Life Loud by Hawk Nelson
Lose It All by Rush of Fools
Me Against The World by Superchick
NY2LA by Press Play
Second Chances by Stellar Kart
Something To Believe In by FM Static
Something To Say by Matthew West
Stronger by Mandisa
Temporary Fills by Mandisa
The Slam by TobyMac
Where I Belong by Building 429
Who I Am Hates Who I've Been by Relient K
Throw out some of your favorite workout tunes. All genres welcome!
Tuesday, September 27, 2016
A Champion Player
written by Kayla Larson
10-19-2003
Ever since I can remember, my grandpa has played horseshoe. He loved the sport so much that he put a court in his backyard so he could practice whenever he wanted. Then, as I got older, my dad eventually started throwing with him. My dad played as a boy, but took a break until just recently. I later found out that two of my uncles also played horseshoe in a league in Brooklyn Park. All of this exposure to horseshoe sparked my interest and got me to where I am today.
I was about 7 or 8 when I threw my first horseshoe. Juniors are supposed to throw from 30 feet, but my grandpa and dad let me stand about 20 feet away since I didn't quite have the strength to throw it 30 feet yet. I was so excited that I got to throw horseshoes just like my dad and grandpa. Just getting in the clay area was an accomplishment at that point. As I got older and stronger, I started moving back.
In 1998, I played in my first horseshoe tournament. The tournament was in Donnelly, MN. I played against my sister and two boys from Ortonville. I'm not sure what place I got, but I do know that I had a great time and beat my sister 37-6. The Donnelly Tournament was the only one I pitched in during 1998, but in 1999 I played in 8 tournaments including my first State Tournament. I entered the State Tournament in Junior Class D with a 12.15 ringer percent and finished in 3rd place. I also received the 1999 Minnesota Gopher State Horseshoe Pitchers' Association Rookie of the Year award at the Awards Banquet, which was held the same weekend.
In 2000, I added 10 more tournaments to my name. This was my first summer playing on a league. To make a long story short, the duo of my mom and I managed to come from the bottom and capture the Alexandria Horseshoe League Championship. This was a very big accomplishment in my book. At the time, it was probably the most momentous event of my life. Another first for this year was playing in the World Horseshoe Tournament in Bismarck, ND. I didn't play that well. I finished 11 of 16. It was a really great experience, nevertheless. I played in the State Tournament again this year, too. I managed to almost double my ringer percent over the year and entered the 2000 MN State Tournament in Junior Girls Class A with a 24.12 ringer percent and finished in 4th place with a 30.93 ringer percent.
In 2001, my mom and I once again paired up as a team in the Alexandria Horseshoe League and once again captured the Alexandria Horseshoe League Championship. I pitched in 10 more tournaments throughout the state in 2001, too. I had 2 highlights in 2001. I got the opportunity to experience another World Horseshoe Tournament. This year, the tournament was held in Hibbing, MN. I wasn't able to pull of any magic on the court once again this year, finishing 11 of 16. However, I did meet my boyfriend of 2 years now at this tournament. You never know what prize you might get at a horseshoe tournament! The State Horseshoe Tournament is the site of my favorite highlight though. I managed to stay in Junior Girls Class A entering with a 28.88 ringer percent. I went 5-0 to be crowned the 2001 MN Junior Girls State Champion. When I was 7 or 8 in the backyard, I never would've dreamt of such a prestigious title.
The last two years, 2002 and 2003, have been pretty quiet with the exception of a couple of things. Once I got my license and started working, it's been harder to find time for horseshoe tournaments on the weekends. Both years I continued to play on the Alexandria Horseshoe League, but was teamed up with my boyfriend due to Grandpa's stroke, leaving my dad without a partner. My mom decided to team up with my dad. My boyfriend and I finished very near the bottom both years, but enjoyed the socializing every Wednesday night. In 2002, I only made it to 5 different tournaments. Of course, I had to go to the State Tournament to try to defend my title. I managed to go 6-1 finishing with a 49.66 ringer percent to repeat as the Junior Girls State Champion. I even managed to 3-peat in 2003 at the State Tournament finishing with a 49.64 ringer percent. Unfortunately, there will not be a 4-peat because this was my last year as a junior and will now have to move up to the Women's Division. At the 2003 Awards Banquet, I was inducted into the Minnesota Gopher State Horseshoe Pitchers Association Junior Honor Roll Hall of Fame, to out with a bang.
I am looking forward to many more accomplishments and awards in the Women's Division. After such a successful junior career, it will be hard to match my previous accomplishments, but I'm up for the challenge! Who knew that a backyard game could be so fun, yet competitive?
10-19-2003
Ever since I can remember, my grandpa has played horseshoe. He loved the sport so much that he put a court in his backyard so he could practice whenever he wanted. Then, as I got older, my dad eventually started throwing with him. My dad played as a boy, but took a break until just recently. I later found out that two of my uncles also played horseshoe in a league in Brooklyn Park. All of this exposure to horseshoe sparked my interest and got me to where I am today.
I was about 7 or 8 when I threw my first horseshoe. Juniors are supposed to throw from 30 feet, but my grandpa and dad let me stand about 20 feet away since I didn't quite have the strength to throw it 30 feet yet. I was so excited that I got to throw horseshoes just like my dad and grandpa. Just getting in the clay area was an accomplishment at that point. As I got older and stronger, I started moving back.
In 1998, I played in my first horseshoe tournament. The tournament was in Donnelly, MN. I played against my sister and two boys from Ortonville. I'm not sure what place I got, but I do know that I had a great time and beat my sister 37-6. The Donnelly Tournament was the only one I pitched in during 1998, but in 1999 I played in 8 tournaments including my first State Tournament. I entered the State Tournament in Junior Class D with a 12.15 ringer percent and finished in 3rd place. I also received the 1999 Minnesota Gopher State Horseshoe Pitchers' Association Rookie of the Year award at the Awards Banquet, which was held the same weekend.
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| This is one of my all-time favorite pictures! (L-R) My dad, Al Larson, my sister, Kelsey, me, and my grandpa, Don Larson It was taken after my sister and I pitched in our first tournament at the Donnelly Threshing Bee. |
In 2001, my mom and I once again paired up as a team in the Alexandria Horseshoe League and once again captured the Alexandria Horseshoe League Championship. I pitched in 10 more tournaments throughout the state in 2001, too. I had 2 highlights in 2001. I got the opportunity to experience another World Horseshoe Tournament. This year, the tournament was held in Hibbing, MN. I wasn't able to pull of any magic on the court once again this year, finishing 11 of 16. However, I did meet my boyfriend of 2 years now at this tournament. You never know what prize you might get at a horseshoe tournament! The State Horseshoe Tournament is the site of my favorite highlight though. I managed to stay in Junior Girls Class A entering with a 28.88 ringer percent. I went 5-0 to be crowned the 2001 MN Junior Girls State Champion. When I was 7 or 8 in the backyard, I never would've dreamt of such a prestigious title.
The last two years, 2002 and 2003, have been pretty quiet with the exception of a couple of things. Once I got my license and started working, it's been harder to find time for horseshoe tournaments on the weekends. Both years I continued to play on the Alexandria Horseshoe League, but was teamed up with my boyfriend due to Grandpa's stroke, leaving my dad without a partner. My mom decided to team up with my dad. My boyfriend and I finished very near the bottom both years, but enjoyed the socializing every Wednesday night. In 2002, I only made it to 5 different tournaments. Of course, I had to go to the State Tournament to try to defend my title. I managed to go 6-1 finishing with a 49.66 ringer percent to repeat as the Junior Girls State Champion. I even managed to 3-peat in 2003 at the State Tournament finishing with a 49.64 ringer percent. Unfortunately, there will not be a 4-peat because this was my last year as a junior and will now have to move up to the Women's Division. At the 2003 Awards Banquet, I was inducted into the Minnesota Gopher State Horseshoe Pitchers Association Junior Honor Roll Hall of Fame, to out with a bang.
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| The MGSHPA had a fantastic Junior Director and got the information to my parents and I about a scholarship opportunity available to junior horseshoe pitchers who participate in a sanctioned league. It is on my bucket list to fill a position that will enable me to motivate and encourage youth to participate in the sport of horseshoes competitively on the national level. PHOTO CAPTION: Kayla Larson of Evansville recently was given an award from the National Horseshoe Pitchers Association of America. She was named a Sanctioned Club Scholar Pitcher for 1999-2000. The award reads: "Having shown proficiency in the sport of Horseshoe Pitching while still maintaining the highest standard of scholastic ability. This Award is Presented with Proud Recognition by the NHPA to this Junior Member for achievements in our sport and the classroom." |
I am looking forward to many more accomplishments and awards in the Women's Division. After such a successful junior career, it will be hard to match my previous accomplishments, but I'm up for the challenge! Who knew that a backyard game could be so fun, yet competitive?
Thursday, September 22, 2016
Horseshoes can bring families together
By Jerry LaBrosse
Published in the January-February 2002 edition of the MGSHPA Ringer Digest
As we start out the 2002 horseshoe season, we should reflect on the events of 2001. Life has changed in America, and people have been drawn closer together in many ways. Things that are important have come into focus, things like family and friends and people in need.
Your involvement in horseshoes can be a great way to build those things in your life. I look at families in our organization like the Larsons, Froehlichs, Sandquists, Meads, Albrechts and the list goes on.
These families enjoy horseshoe, traveling to tournaments together and supporting each other. Horseshoe is the glue that holds some of these families together, and it's really nice to see that. Ask yourself how many friends you have that came from the horseshoe world. I know I have many friends that I would have never met had it not been for the game.
Each year you see these friends and also make new ones, and that's what it's all about.
Published in the January-February 2002 edition of the MGSHPA Ringer Digest
As we start out the 2002 horseshoe season, we should reflect on the events of 2001. Life has changed in America, and people have been drawn closer together in many ways. Things that are important have come into focus, things like family and friends and people in need.
Your involvement in horseshoes can be a great way to build those things in your life. I look at families in our organization like the Larsons, Froehlichs, Sandquists, Meads, Albrechts and the list goes on.
These families enjoy horseshoe, traveling to tournaments together and supporting each other. Horseshoe is the glue that holds some of these families together, and it's really nice to see that. Ask yourself how many friends you have that came from the horseshoe world. I know I have many friends that I would have never met had it not been for the game.
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| Jerry LaBrosse and me in 2004 at my high school awards night. He was the MGSHPA President at the time. |
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| Jerry and me in 2016 at the State Horseshoe Banquet in Pierz, MN. Always fun to return home to all the familiar faces of my MN horseshoe family! |
Wednesday, August 24, 2016
FITNESS + NUTRITION - Wanna Bet?
I'm excited to be hosting a challenge group to give you – my friends and family – a chance to earn a share of the $1-$3 million pot from Beachbody just for sharing your workouts 3x a week and drinking Shakeology 5x a week!
This is a really cool chance to be rewarded for your consistency. And consistency over time is when you feel the best and get results.
2) Participate in my fitness online studio with a program that meets your goals, be coached by myself and my team, and be held accountable to others like yourself to workouts and clean eating 5 days a week for 5 weeks minimum. (Sept 5-Oct. 2)
3) Log your workouts and Shakeology in the My Challenge Tracker app.
4) Complete steps 1-3 and WIN your share of the pot with others who do the same.
This is a really cool chance to be rewarded for your consistency. And consistency over time is when you feel the best and get results.
"What you do EVERY DAY
matters more than what you do
EVERY ONCE in awhile."
matters more than what you do
EVERY ONCE in awhile."
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| See official rules: http://bit.ly/2b6JSGU |
Here's how:
1) Chat with me about your goals for this fall...weight loss? 5k? Gain strength? Find a way to love fitness for yourself?2) Participate in my fitness online studio with a program that meets your goals, be coached by myself and my team, and be held accountable to others like yourself to workouts and clean eating 5 days a week for 5 weeks minimum. (Sept 5-Oct. 2)
**You'll want to allow 5-7 days for your Shakeology to ship after ordering, and you'll need it starting September 5th to qualify!**
3) Log your workouts and Shakeology in the My Challenge Tracker app.
4) Complete steps 1-3 and WIN your share of the pot with others who do the same.
I'm looking forward to seeing who's willing to take this bet and sweat with me in September!
What do you have to lose?!?
Friday, August 5, 2016
MIND + LIFE - Funky Friday
The norm this summer has been to be at the lake Thursday, therefore waking up at camp on Friday morning. Not today. Today I'm finishing packing the camper to head out...hopefully by noonish. It's definitely more relaxing to be sitting at camp set up during a summer rain shower than trying to get it loaded while trying to make a minimal mess. Pretty much ready to rock at this point, but I am going to get my workout and a shower in before we leave, which brings me to part II of what I'll call "Funky Friday."
Yesterday was one of my best nutritional days in a week, but I went to bed feeling crummy and woke up feeling like a lead balloon, which is so not the case typically after a "good" day. BUT my week...not my weekend...was not very pretty. My trend has been kick ass during the week, feel awesome going in to the weekend, and then be right back where I started the previous week by the end of the weekend. Which I guess is what we'd call maintenance, and is my bare minimum goal for this summer and lake season, but it's still a vicious cycle...maybe if our boat wasn't name "Pour decisions" I'd have better luck...(that's a lame excuse, I know!)
But going back to how I feel this morning...the Insanity workouts are down right TOUGH and I'm sure (hoping) causing extra inflammation and swelling in my body. I'm trying to push through this little funk today with positive thoughts though. I've replaying Shaun T's commentary on my head from a podcast I listened to last week about how everyone's results are different and males tend to see quicker results than females. He went on to say that with the female test group participants, some of them were getting so frustrated throughout the process, but then in the last two weeks of the program they dropped anywhere from 10-25 lbs, so he was begging all of the listeners to STICK WITH IT. And that's what I'm going to do. My body is getting firmer, my muscles are getting stronger, and I'm feeling rejuvenated mentally as well!
Whatever you may be doing, or thinking about doing, remember the results aren't going to happen overnight, and your body may actually respond "negatively" before the magic starts to happen.
AND NUTRITION. I have no doubt I'd be kickin' tail if I really dialed in my nutrition and followed the meal plan that came with the program...but I'm going to go enjoy another weekend of "pour decisions" and then work my booty off again next week!
Have a great weekend friends!!
Yesterday was one of my best nutritional days in a week, but I went to bed feeling crummy and woke up feeling like a lead balloon, which is so not the case typically after a "good" day. BUT my week...not my weekend...was not very pretty. My trend has been kick ass during the week, feel awesome going in to the weekend, and then be right back where I started the previous week by the end of the weekend. Which I guess is what we'd call maintenance, and is my bare minimum goal for this summer and lake season, but it's still a vicious cycle...maybe if our boat wasn't name "Pour decisions" I'd have better luck...(that's a lame excuse, I know!)
But going back to how I feel this morning...the Insanity workouts are down right TOUGH and I'm sure (hoping) causing extra inflammation and swelling in my body. I'm trying to push through this little funk today with positive thoughts though. I've replaying Shaun T's commentary on my head from a podcast I listened to last week about how everyone's results are different and males tend to see quicker results than females. He went on to say that with the female test group participants, some of them were getting so frustrated throughout the process, but then in the last two weeks of the program they dropped anywhere from 10-25 lbs, so he was begging all of the listeners to STICK WITH IT. And that's what I'm going to do. My body is getting firmer, my muscles are getting stronger, and I'm feeling rejuvenated mentally as well!
Whatever you may be doing, or thinking about doing, remember the results aren't going to happen overnight, and your body may actually respond "negatively" before the magic starts to happen.
AND NUTRITION. I have no doubt I'd be kickin' tail if I really dialed in my nutrition and followed the meal plan that came with the program...but I'm going to go enjoy another weekend of "pour decisions" and then work my booty off again next week!
Have a great weekend friends!!
Wednesday, August 3, 2016
FITNESS: Finding Motivation
COME ON Y'ALL, LET'S GOOOOOOOOOO!!!
I don't remember for sure what made me start listening to the Trust & Believe with Shaun T podcast again, but it has been such an amazing source of insight and motivation for me! I relate to so much of what he says! And in his words:
"When you talk about fitness DVDs I think that they also can work, but you obviously have to relate to the person who is actually being an instructor on the DVDs or whatever..... But it all starts with you actually believing that you can actually do it. You have to do the work. Period." (Being Gay Kept Me Fit)I was doing ChaLEAN Extreme (a workout by my second favorite trainer, Chalene Johnson) when I started listening to Shaun T again, and I knew after listening to a few that I needed him in my fitness life, so I started doing INSANITY via Beachbody on Demand. I did the initial Fit Test on July 11, and completed the "Day 15" Fit Test today. If interested, you can see my progress here.
And if you're really keeping up, you'll notice it's been more than 15 days since I started. We're spoiled with our schedules and lake season typically finds us with several 4 day weekends. With the intensity of the program, realistically I know I'll have a hard time finding space and time to get the workouts in at camp, so instead I've opted for running or biking at camp. I had to go in to the workout schedule knowing I wouldn't be able to stick to it "to a T." If I tried, I'd feel like a failure and give up, I know this much about myself. I reformatted the schedule in a list format rather than a calendar format so I could do the workouts in order and still complete the whole program though.
100% for real, if I left it as a calendar and did it workout by workout, mentally I would feel so behind doing Friday's workout on Tuesday it would discourage me to the point of quitting!
Committing to Insanity is the first step I'm taking to regain control of my Beachbody Coaching business. Our CEO commented in a podcast on Monday:
"What program are you doing? Start to finish.The products work, if I work! And I want people to notice and get just as excited as I am about the results.
I’m talking to you veteran coaches or coaches who have been around awhile and think you can get away with representing the product without being the proof that you’re doing the product. But I’m telling you right now..
People know. People know if you’re for real or not." -Carl Daikeler
Before I wrap this up, I just want to go back to where I started this with relating to your trainer, whether in person or via a fitness program...if you're not "feeling" your workout / routine, FIND one you do, and get the results you want.
My ability to relate with Shaun T goes beyond his workouts...here are just a few examples that come to mind:
"In general, I like working out by myself. Like I hate, with a capital 'P' Passion, working out with people. Like I can't stand it. Like I think it distracts me. ...I don't like planning time to workout with poeple, I like waking up, like sometimes we workout with a group of people, and like, not saying I don't ever hold people up, like sometimes I have to go to the bathroom, you know what I'm saying, pee at the last moment because I'm nervous, or um, you know where there's other people who are like 'I'm finishing something up before I come,' because for me when it's time for me to workout I only have a small space of motivation, like there's a very small window of opportunity for me to feel motivated, and the minute that opportunity goes away I'm like, 'I don't feel working out. I don't feel like working out anymore, and I definitely don't want to workout with a group of people because you guys, I'm waiting for you or you're waiting for me, you know what I'm sayin', so I'm not saying it's their fault, it could be my fault too."
"I like to stay attractive for myself. At the end of the day, I like being fit."
"Why did you let yourself go? Because the honeymoon phase is over? Well, I still think you need to stay healthy and look good. And I totally think your internal fitness motivation aids in your sexual activity when you are in a relationship because what happens is, it's like a domino effect, when you start to let go of your fitness level, some people, and I say a lot of people, start to become self-conscious of certain things like, 'ah, you know, I'm gaining a little gut" or "I'm starting to get a little saggy in the booty area" or whatever the case may be and then you start obsessing in the mirror and then you stop liking what you're seeing so your spouse is laying next to you and they're sitting there like, 'I wanna do a little something,' and you're like 'NO!' And so, the reality is, while I stay fit the majority of the time, with my hand being hurt, like I, I feel like my upper body looks like jello, and I'm just like oh my god this is horrible, and so it's hard for me to stay sexual because I just like, I want to be...you know, and it really doesn't come down to the way I look, it comes down to the effort that I'm putting in to being fit, and I'm not even going to put that effort in to that part of my body, so I'm like 'ugh!'"AND, how about some super-exhausted-from-Insanity pictures...
Saturday, July 23, 2016
MIND: Trust tremors
If this is going to be a place I can be candid about all things, let me give this a try with a short one to kick things off.
I wasn't really up for drinking this evening, which doesn't happen that often at the lake, but even when it does, I have a hard time not giving in to peer pressure. But tonight I hung out by the fire in an absolutely gorgeous evening and had the joy of having two of my most favorite things come together for an evening: my family and "our" lake.
This I would assume is a big part of why I didn't want to overdo it the first night and feel like crap while trying to enjoy my time with them.
Another probable explanation is that I feel really really good about the physical progress I've made with my workout program this week, and I just wasn't quite ready to have three days of crap decisions (two is still very possible).
There are times I will admit to saying "no" to drinking when I really wanted and felt "deprived" of fun, but tonight was not one of those nights. I was really really enjoying being with friends around the campfire, laughing and sharing stories!
I am more reserved in social settings, yes, and my definition of "fun" has a very wide spectrum... sometimes it involves alcohol (say goodbye to the reserve Kayla), sometimes it doesn't.
I enjoy a couple drinks to help take the edge off my social awkwardness and help me relax, but I know myself and know I have to be super careful to not quickly go from enjoying the buzz to major regrets! I recognized it tonight when I went for my second one, and stopped.
What I forgot to prepare for was the ridicule.
I'm not sure why I ever feel the need to try to justify myself amongst a group of drunks. And sometimes it's easier to just avoid the group/activity all together on nights I don't want to drink. But there's certainly memories to be made and a feeling of belonging being there.
Oh yeah, and what probably has me most awake and regretting not just doing as everyone suggested and getting drunk enough to pass out or at least clear my mind is...
Apparently something went down that "Kayla wasn't supposed to know about." I get it. I've lived in the dark about a lot of things most of my life either by choice, the perception of being the good girl, a history of negative reactions, etc.
I feel like I could brush off this incident (well, maybe, it is almost breakfast time and I'm sitting up writing about it), what else happens that I don't know about because it's been requested to stay a secret? 🤔 A little tremor in my trust department for sure!
Maybe it's just that I have such awesome friends who know me well enough to know how to "look out for me..."
[So much for short]
I wasn't really up for drinking this evening, which doesn't happen that often at the lake, but even when it does, I have a hard time not giving in to peer pressure. But tonight I hung out by the fire in an absolutely gorgeous evening and had the joy of having two of my most favorite things come together for an evening: my family and "our" lake.
This I would assume is a big part of why I didn't want to overdo it the first night and feel like crap while trying to enjoy my time with them.
Another probable explanation is that I feel really really good about the physical progress I've made with my workout program this week, and I just wasn't quite ready to have three days of crap decisions (two is still very possible).
There are times I will admit to saying "no" to drinking when I really wanted and felt "deprived" of fun, but tonight was not one of those nights. I was really really enjoying being with friends around the campfire, laughing and sharing stories!
I am more reserved in social settings, yes, and my definition of "fun" has a very wide spectrum... sometimes it involves alcohol (say goodbye to the reserve Kayla), sometimes it doesn't.
I enjoy a couple drinks to help take the edge off my social awkwardness and help me relax, but I know myself and know I have to be super careful to not quickly go from enjoying the buzz to major regrets! I recognized it tonight when I went for my second one, and stopped.
What I forgot to prepare for was the ridicule.
I'm not sure why I ever feel the need to try to justify myself amongst a group of drunks. And sometimes it's easier to just avoid the group/activity all together on nights I don't want to drink. But there's certainly memories to be made and a feeling of belonging being there.
Oh yeah, and what probably has me most awake and regretting not just doing as everyone suggested and getting drunk enough to pass out or at least clear my mind is...
Apparently something went down that "Kayla wasn't supposed to know about." I get it. I've lived in the dark about a lot of things most of my life either by choice, the perception of being the good girl, a history of negative reactions, etc.
I feel like I could brush off this incident (well, maybe, it is almost breakfast time and I'm sitting up writing about it), what else happens that I don't know about because it's been requested to stay a secret? 🤔 A little tremor in my trust department for sure!
Maybe it's just that I have such awesome friends who know me well enough to know how to "look out for me..."
[So much for short]
Thursday, July 21, 2016
LIFE: Camping on Thursday
Today has been a productive and relaxing whirlwind. Lol.
I picked Trenton up about 11pm last night so we could head to Curtis Creek via KS-18 in the morning. We proceeded to stay up until about 4am getting the motorhome packed. I wanted to leave between 9-10am, so I decided to set my alarm for 9. I didn't make it with all the checklists in my head.
On just over three hours of sleep, we left the house at 9:30am, and Minneapolis at 10:05am.
The drive was pretty uneventful, which I'm always thankful for! Set the cruise at 65 headed east for camp. There was a pretty good south wind, and at one point as I came up to a tree line, the motorhome pulled quickly and without much notice started flirting too close for comfort with the edge of the road.
Every nerve in my body was activated, and apparently there's a lot of them in my stomach!
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| Driving the motorhome doesn't really scare me anymore, but I do still doubt my ability in certain situations and put way too much thought and worry in to made up scenarios in my mind most of the time while driving. I couldn't help but wander my "what-if" worries to what it's going to be like with a semi and 45' trailer! :-O |
Which then, as I tried to regain some normalcy with my nerves again, led me to spending the next 10-15 minutes in awe of how intricate our bodies are. That little split second motion created all but havoc with the chain reaction of mind and nerve connections. Craziness.
I got to empty tanks from last weekend first thing. Yippee! I think the dump station is conveniently located in the most direct shot of sunshine in a three state area! I'm going to have to try to plan better than to be dumping between 11am-3pm.
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| Shakeology "Make it a double one" |
We pulled in to Site 20 just in time to get leveled up, hook up to power and water and eat some lunch. Forgot the peanut butter. :( Which was about the third thing already at this point on the list of forgotten stuff for Matt to bring. It's kind of nice to have a back up plan/straggler!
Matt text about the campground "neighbors" and wondered if there was any leftover wood we could gather. We made a pretty good haul and got a pretty sweet (and sweaty) workout out of the deal! It would be the extent of my workout for the day, so I wasn't complaining a bit. It kind of felt a little Biggest Loser challenge-ish.
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| This kid is a freaking rock star! I want him around my kid as much as possible so he'll rub off on him! Just from the pictures and texts I sent Matt, it made him ask if we had to give him back. Lol! Do we?!?! |
Go to fire ring and collect as much wood as you can carry.
Bring it to our campsite.
Return to fire pit for remaining wood.
Back to our pit with it.
Repeat process for each fire ring.
At this point I REALLY needed to force myself in to focusing on working on the final Pregame ads. My ability to focus when I'm sleep deprived is horrendous.
I spent 4-5 hours of my afternoon working on ads while watching Hayden and Trenton play together. They played on the slides, went for a bike ride, swam, and cooled off in the motorhome to fill their afternoon. I may have even for a very split second while watching them play in the water had a fleeting thought about a second child. I can't believe I just admitted that!
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| It's hard to see them, but Hayden & Trenton spent a good 30-45 minutes floating and splashing around in the water together while I sat in the motorhome working on ads and glancing out at them. |
So I'm completely exhausted and came to bed 2 hours ago. Laying here mentally reflecting on the day, going over possible plans/scenarios for tomorrow, and also feeling a little bit guilty for being here and having the day I've had to reflect on.
As exhausted as I am from my lack of sleep, back at home, Matt and Tyson are (and have been all week) BUSTING THEIR TAILS...AFTER WORKING...to get the new motor running and mounted and hooked up on the pontoon (the old one quit right at the end of last weekends trip) so we all, but especially my family making the trip from MN, have it here for entertainment and the "true" lake experience this weekend.
I told them, "No matter what happens with the boat for this weekend... It is AMAZING what you guys are capable of!"
Friday, July 15, 2016
RV LIFE - The First Hurt
The majority of our family and close friends are familiar with our plan to sell our home, a BUNCH of our STUFF, and move in to a fifth wheel toy hauler and travel Matt’s sales territory as a family.
The very first weekend following the birth of “This Crazy Idea” we started purging the top layer of our stuff. The stuff we don’t need, but on the same hand don’t really have a need to get rid of either, a curse to owning 1,000 square foot per person in the family. Every one I’ve talked to about that layer of stuff seems to have a layer just like it. Lol.
That layer felt good to clear out, and was easy to do with the excitement of all the possibilities to come with the new lifestyle. But we’re not naive enough to think it’s all going to be as easy. And for the record, we do plan on keeping a shipping container with family heirloom furniture and other keepsakes and/or items we may want if we decide to “land” again after a couple years on the road.
Yesterday we delivered the first piece of “stuff” causing any kind of “hurt” for me. I’ll heal, but it’s certainly got me thinking, “It is Happening!”
Any guesses as to what it was?
The very first weekend following the birth of “This Crazy Idea” we started purging the top layer of our stuff. The stuff we don’t need, but on the same hand don’t really have a need to get rid of either, a curse to owning 1,000 square foot per person in the family. Every one I’ve talked to about that layer of stuff seems to have a layer just like it. Lol.
That layer felt good to clear out, and was easy to do with the excitement of all the possibilities to come with the new lifestyle. But we’re not naive enough to think it’s all going to be as easy. And for the record, we do plan on keeping a shipping container with family heirloom furniture and other keepsakes and/or items we may want if we decide to “land” again after a couple years on the road.
Yesterday we delivered the first piece of “stuff” causing any kind of “hurt” for me. I’ll heal, but it’s certainly got me thinking, “It is Happening!”
Any guesses as to what it was?
Thursday, July 14, 2016
RV LIFE: This Crazy Idea
Anyone ever had really good intentions that lacked follow-through? Birthday cards/gifts, scrapbooks, photo albums, home organization, new family traditions, etc.
Really high on my good intentions list is recording my thoughts and life adventures, and I know I will have regrets if I don’t find the time to record our transition to full-time RVing, so I’m going to do my best to give short, frequent updates (once / if I ever get caught up) so I don’t get overwhelmed with thinking I have to write a short book every blog post. Haha.
I’m already having to ask Matt “just how/when did we decide we were ACTUALLY going to start the process?”
We were at Markeley Grove Park in Minneapolis with Hayden one evening this spring when Matt spotted a 5th wheel camped out and made the comment, “We could do that, and Hayden could have a new park in his front yard on a weekly basis.”
My peaked interest set Matt’s Craigslist search in motion and it wasn’t long before the possibilities started pouring in…and quite honestly, it was all looking VERY appealing!
And not only the campers were appealing, but the lifestyle in general, and it helping us reach other goals we have for our life was appealing as well. Some of the most attractive changes in lifestyle, for us, include:
The responses we’ve gotten from people have ranged from raised eyebrows, “what the heck gave you that idea,” “good for you!” and lots of questioning.
We (mostly Matt) have done a ton of research in to fifth wheels, trucks, and the lifestyle in general, but there will be a ton of questions we won’t be able to answer until we’re out on the road. We love getting questions from our family and friends, as sometimes it helps bring light to something we may have overlooked, so feel free to drop some of your questions below, and I’ll work on putting together a blog with our most commonly asked questions. :)
Really high on my good intentions list is recording my thoughts and life adventures, and I know I will have regrets if I don’t find the time to record our transition to full-time RVing, so I’m going to do my best to give short, frequent updates (once / if I ever get caught up) so I don’t get overwhelmed with thinking I have to write a short book every blog post. Haha.
I’m already having to ask Matt “just how/when did we decide we were ACTUALLY going to start the process?”
We were at Markeley Grove Park in Minneapolis with Hayden one evening this spring when Matt spotted a 5th wheel camped out and made the comment, “We could do that, and Hayden could have a new park in his front yard on a weekly basis.”
My peaked interest set Matt’s Craigslist search in motion and it wasn’t long before the possibilities started pouring in…and quite honestly, it was all looking VERY appealing!
And not only the campers were appealing, but the lifestyle in general, and it helping us reach other goals we have for our life was appealing as well. Some of the most attractive changes in lifestyle, for us, include:
- Living debt-free (including the house)
- Investing in rental properties
- Matt’s ability to be more effective at his job, without sacrificing time with Hayden & I
- Upgrading to a camper with slide outs
- [More] freedom to travel
The responses we’ve gotten from people have ranged from raised eyebrows, “what the heck gave you that idea,” “good for you!” and lots of questioning.
We (mostly Matt) have done a ton of research in to fifth wheels, trucks, and the lifestyle in general, but there will be a ton of questions we won’t be able to answer until we’re out on the road. We love getting questions from our family and friends, as sometimes it helps bring light to something we may have overlooked, so feel free to drop some of your questions below, and I’ll work on putting together a blog with our most commonly asked questions. :)
Tuesday, July 5, 2016
NUTRITION - For Me
Let me just start off by saying I somehow need to figure out how to write a blog in less than 6-8 hours!! Good golly...I'm notoriously slow at nearly everything I do, you'd think I'd just be used to it, but no, it's still annoying as all get out!!
So anyway...
I just (as in 6 hours ago when I first opened up Blogger) listened to DEFINE YOUR LIFE #25 FOOD -- a podcast by Shaun T. This was not only exactly what I needed to hear, but they also explain so many of my thoughts on food to an exact "T".
I've been in a "slump" with my weight loss progress, which for several months now I've [tried] accepting it's not about weight loss any more, but rather about toning up, feeling good, and finding balance. And I'm not here to say it isn't still, but deciphering what is a healthy balance and what is old habits slowly creeping back in is mentally exhausting to say the least.
For me...
...eating healthy is enjoyable. But I still "crave" unhealthy food. Some of it has been much easier to completely give up than I expected it would be. Some of it I think I want until given the opportunity, and then realize I don't want it bad enough to either, a) feel like crud, or b) negate my progress, which I'm figuring out can be mental or physical progress at this point. And then there's some of it that will just always find a way into my body, and I'll [learn to] be okay with it!
...telling myself, "If you want it, just have it!" doesn't feel like an option. I won't definitively say that it is NOT an option, because I do feel like it is something I am trying to work toward, but the fact of the matter is, I believe I have/had an unconcious addiction to food. "All addictions work in the same part of the brain. Addiction is addiction is addiction. Therefore one drug can lead you back to any other drug." (Reference: www.AddictionsAndRecovery.org) For me, I still feel like I'm in the process of learning new coping skills and changing my mindset/relationship with food. If I don't learn these new skills, then I will not change, and the addiction will catch up with me all over again. But at least now I have transitioned from eating too much junk food to just simply eating too much.
...being a Beachbody Coach is the key to maintaining a clean eating lifestyle. However, I need to understand that being a Beachbody coach doesn't mean I have to expect a perfect body or a perfect diet. The whole reason my friends and family can (or should be able to) relate to my story is because they know me and see that I'm just a normal person making healthy choices to better my quality of life.
...there will always be a scale in my bathroom, and I am likely to step on it every morning. Yes, no matter how often I tell myself or others, I do care what the scale says. Maybe if/once I get a handle on how often and how much I am eating, I'll be able to do away with this check/method of accountability, but for now, I still need/want it. And I will say I'm much more aware and okay with daily fluctuations, and that through my workouts my body composition is changing which also effects the number, but in the end, for me, I need the check.
So anyway...
I just (as in 6 hours ago when I first opened up Blogger) listened to DEFINE YOUR LIFE #25 FOOD -- a podcast by Shaun T. This was not only exactly what I needed to hear, but they also explain so many of my thoughts on food to an exact "T".
"Accepting where your body is, where you want it to be, and how to
maintain that body without stressing yourself out or depriving
yourself..."
-Shaun T, intro to podcast
I've been in a "slump" with my weight loss progress, which for several months now I've [tried] accepting it's not about weight loss any more, but rather about toning up, feeling good, and finding balance. And I'm not here to say it isn't still, but deciphering what is a healthy balance and what is old habits slowly creeping back in is mentally exhausting to say the least.
For me...
...eating healthy is enjoyable. But I still "crave" unhealthy food. Some of it has been much easier to completely give up than I expected it would be. Some of it I think I want until given the opportunity, and then realize I don't want it bad enough to either, a) feel like crud, or b) negate my progress, which I'm figuring out can be mental or physical progress at this point. And then there's some of it that will just always find a way into my body, and I'll [learn to] be okay with it!
...telling myself, "If you want it, just have it!" doesn't feel like an option. I won't definitively say that it is NOT an option, because I do feel like it is something I am trying to work toward, but the fact of the matter is, I believe I have/had an unconcious addiction to food. "All addictions work in the same part of the brain. Addiction is addiction is addiction. Therefore one drug can lead you back to any other drug." (Reference: www.AddictionsAndRecovery.org) For me, I still feel like I'm in the process of learning new coping skills and changing my mindset/relationship with food. If I don't learn these new skills, then I will not change, and the addiction will catch up with me all over again. But at least now I have transitioned from eating too much junk food to just simply eating too much.
...being a Beachbody Coach is the key to maintaining a clean eating lifestyle. However, I need to understand that being a Beachbody coach doesn't mean I have to expect a perfect body or a perfect diet. The whole reason my friends and family can (or should be able to) relate to my story is because they know me and see that I'm just a normal person making healthy choices to better my quality of life.
...there will always be a scale in my bathroom, and I am likely to step on it every morning. Yes, no matter how often I tell myself or others, I do care what the scale says. Maybe if/once I get a handle on how often and how much I am eating, I'll be able to do away with this check/method of accountability, but for now, I still need/want it. And I will say I'm much more aware and okay with daily fluctuations, and that through my workouts my body composition is changing which also effects the number, but in the end, for me, I need the check.
Tuesday, March 22, 2016
Passion, Persistance & Payoff
Here it is 11 o'clock at night and I'm just now getting around to starting this blog that I've been thinking about over half the day. I know if I go to bed without putting these thoughts in to writing, they won't ever make it outside my mind, and sometimes I think I just need a good clearing out of my mind from time to time.
The past 1-1/2+ years I've become very passionate about changing Matt and I's lifestyle, and paying it forward as much as possible for those looking for solutions in this area. And as easily as I could digress into the back story, this post is really being written more to focus on today's accomplishments/realizations.
About 4 months ago I determined I needed to regain focus on myself in order to figure out and solve some problems I'd been having with binge eating and food guilt that was causing a lot of unwanted stress to my life. In doing so, I have gone back to tracking my calories in MyFitnessPal, and in addition, been tracking my macros (here's an article with further information for those interested).
My goal is to still eat as clean and balanced as possible, but also know my target calorie and macros are my overall goal, so if I want something that isn't clean, if it fits my macros (IIFYM) and I'm consistently getting my workouts in, I haven't committed some kind of nutritional sin. It sounds over the top, but it's not that far off of what my reality had become.
With a weird morning...Hayden waking up at 4am and finding myself downstairs on the couch resting off and on between hisdemands requests for a couple hours, then going back to bed (and pushing Matt out of bed to go down and get his workout done), I ended up not waking up until 9:30 or so. Come supper time, I had plenty of calories remaining to have pretty much anything I wanted...OK, maybe a large Casey's pizza would've broke the calorie bank...lol. I himmed and hawed for 30-45 minutes over what I could have.
Here's what I ended up with (pretty much all leftovers in the fridge)...
So then with a little over 400 calories remaining, I had thedilemma freedom to have pretty much whatever I desired for a sweet treat / dessert as well. :D
As I mentioned, I had a lot of freedom going into this evening, and was pretty set on "treating" myself to something I wouldn't typically reach for...and I DO feel like I treated myself, it just ended up being a realization that I do in fact find myself gravitating toward clean/healthy options after over a year of consciously making wise decisions that fuel my fitness goals. Yay!
My perfectionism still runs wild getting caught up in playing Macro Tetris each day, but I'm far more relaxed than I used to be, my binge eating doesn't seem to be a major issue, I feel stronger than ever in my legs and core in particular, and even though my weight is a little higher than I "think" it should be, I'm feeling more and more confident my body composition is going in the right direction.
As I was telling my sister-in-law, who was hanging out with Hayden and I this afternoon/evening, there are definitely times I miss the days of not being so particular and careful about weighing/measuring food, I certainly don't miss the consequences of improperly fueling my body. Right now, this is what is working for me, and I will continue down this path until it no longer seems to be working at which point I'll go back to researching solutions for whatever the new issue may be.
By the way, it was fun for me to be able to have her here to fix a couple healthy meals for...I always get a little nervous, wondering if my tastebuds and body have changed enough that something I find delicious, is going to produce the same reaction for someone accustomed to a different food/flavor/taste palette. If you know her and see her (when I'm not around), ask her what her thoughts were on the burrito...but what she told me was that she liked it! :D Hopefully it got her excited about next week's {free} healthy choices accountability group I'm hosting via a new mobile app. Shoot me a message for instructions on how to get a personal invite with instructions headed your way!
The past 1-1/2+ years I've become very passionate about changing Matt and I's lifestyle, and paying it forward as much as possible for those looking for solutions in this area. And as easily as I could digress into the back story, this post is really being written more to focus on today's accomplishments/realizations.
About 4 months ago I determined I needed to regain focus on myself in order to figure out and solve some problems I'd been having with binge eating and food guilt that was causing a lot of unwanted stress to my life. In doing so, I have gone back to tracking my calories in MyFitnessPal, and in addition, been tracking my macros (here's an article with further information for those interested).
My goal is to still eat as clean and balanced as possible, but also know my target calorie and macros are my overall goal, so if I want something that isn't clean, if it fits my macros (IIFYM) and I'm consistently getting my workouts in, I haven't committed some kind of nutritional sin. It sounds over the top, but it's not that far off of what my reality had become.
With a weird morning...Hayden waking up at 4am and finding myself downstairs on the couch resting off and on between his
Here's what I ended up with (pretty much all leftovers in the fridge)...
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| Matt was on the road and hinted to the fact he'd probably be stopping for Mexican, so naturally my thought was, "If he gets Mexican, then I'm gonna have Mexican!" Haha! |
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| With 900+ calories going in to supper, I really didn't even worry about approximating in my head the calories going into the burrito, because I wasn't too worried I was going to go over, and if it was the last thing I ate, I was comfortable with that fact. As you can see here, I still had nearly an entire meals worth of calories left. The freedom to make the Grilled Stuffed Burrito however I thought sounded best was really quite nice! :D It's the little things that make me happy...and Mexican food! |
So then with a little over 400 calories remaining, I had the
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| After looking at where I stood with my macros, the carb and protein I had left looked awfully similar to the Shakeology nutrition label, and "brownie batter" pretty much always sounds amazing, it was pretty much a no-brainer. My fat macro was lacking pretty significantly today, so that's why I threw in the walnuts for this batch. |
As I mentioned, I had a lot of freedom going into this evening, and was pretty set on "treating" myself to something I wouldn't typically reach for...and I DO feel like I treated myself, it just ended up being a realization that I do in fact find myself gravitating toward clean/healthy options after over a year of consciously making wise decisions that fuel my fitness goals. Yay!
My perfectionism still runs wild getting caught up in playing Macro Tetris each day, but I'm far more relaxed than I used to be, my binge eating doesn't seem to be a major issue, I feel stronger than ever in my legs and core in particular, and even though my weight is a little higher than I "think" it should be, I'm feeling more and more confident my body composition is going in the right direction.
As I was telling my sister-in-law, who was hanging out with Hayden and I this afternoon/evening, there are definitely times I miss the days of not being so particular and careful about weighing/measuring food, I certainly don't miss the consequences of improperly fueling my body. Right now, this is what is working for me, and I will continue down this path until it no longer seems to be working at which point I'll go back to researching solutions for whatever the new issue may be.
By the way, it was fun for me to be able to have her here to fix a couple healthy meals for...I always get a little nervous, wondering if my tastebuds and body have changed enough that something I find delicious, is going to produce the same reaction for someone accustomed to a different food/flavor/taste palette. If you know her and see her (when I'm not around), ask her what her thoughts were on the burrito...but what she told me was that she liked it! :D Hopefully it got her excited about next week's {free} healthy choices accountability group I'm hosting via a new mobile app. Shoot me a message for instructions on how to get a personal invite with instructions headed your way!
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